Template Envy

I realize I am highly behind the times in terms of the whole "blogging" world, and today, as I perused the blog world I was reminded of that fact.  Seriously, who knew that your template for your blog was so important and could be so expensive!  Hutton is almost 3 weeks old now, and when I see a blog template I like and then the price, I think of all the things I could buy from the baby aisle at Target with that money.  Yes, I am on a budget, and yes, I am addicted to Target.
Which leads me to another thought that ties in with the "template envy".  I don't know how many people would agree with this, but that old adage "the grass is always greener" seems to be very applicable to facebook.  Now that I have a newborn at home, my time to peruse facebook has definitely dwindled, and to be honest I am grateful for that in more ways than one.  Without going into a ton of detail, my life is not exactly where I thought it would be at 28 years old.  With that being said, facebook can be somewhat of a trap for me.  The whole concept of facebook is so interesting to me, you post factoids, pictures, information, and status updates of your life to people that you consider "friends".  But how accurate is that picture that we portray?  I have to continually keep that question in my mind when I browse through my news feed or others profiles.  It is very easy to be envious of others who lives seem to be picture perfect.  Don't get me wrong, I'm not wishing ill on anyone, I pray that others are living the lives that they desire and are fulfilled.  But I know that our day-to-day lives can be rough at times, and that's not always portrayed on our facebook page.  So although my life is not perfect and there are certainly areas of improvement, I know that I am blessed beyond measure and that God will never give me more than I can handle.  So for now, I guess I will just window shop when it comes to blog templates and rest contented with the freebie version I have : )

Lists

I am an avid list maker, to the point that I have more notepads and post-its than a Staples store along with pretty much any brand of pen known to man.  With that being said, over the last couple of months in preparation for my little man's birth, I have made list upon list, everything from baby products to how I wanted his closet organized.  Yes, I said it, how his closet is organized.  As my mother and I were at breakfast this morning I realized I have completed every task on every one of my lists, and then I panicked.  As of yesterday, my "little man" at 34 weeks is 6 lbs. 9 oz. and in the 94th percentile for growth, the doctor advised me that if he doesn't come on his own by September 21st that they will induce me.  I've always known he would be here and I would not be pregnant forever, but now that his due date has been moved up by three weeks the real reality is setting in.
Growing up I knew what I wanted to do with my life, what my purpose was, and it was to be a mother.  Don't get me wrong, I know there are going to be times that I am going to want to rip my hair out, but I also know that I have been blessed with a precious gift and I will never take that for granted.
Although I have completed my list of tasks in preparation for his arrival, I'm sure my days of list making are far from over!

I Can Feel It...

As of this past Sunday I am 21 weeks, which to me doesn't sound very exciting or important but the most AMAZING thing has happened... Not only can I feel the little man move, but people on the outside can too!!!  I have to admit, it freaks me out sometimes when he really gets going.  It's like an alien (albeit a wonerful alien!) moving inside me, and at times I have to get up and move around because I want him to settle down! Ha! 
My mother and I were talking the other night and it amazes me to think that he will be here in 4 months.  Yep, 4 months and I will officially be a mommy.  That.  Is.  Nuts.
There are times that I realize how pregnant I am, for those mommies and mommies to-be out there I think you'll understand what I mean.  I normally work on Monday's, and although this last Monday was Memorial Day I didn't think anything of it and came to work.  As I drove into the parking lot I noticed that there were very few people there, this should have been clue numero uno but I didn't think anything of it.  I enter the building and walk upstairs to my department and my little cubicle and start settling in for the day when one of my co-workers comes over and says, "what are you doing here?".  I was a little taken aback, but I replied, "I work on Monday's 10-6:30.".  After a little back and forth it came out that although I normally work on Monday's that it was, indeed, a holiday and that I was off.  Seriously, I cannot fathom how I thought that I was working on Memorial Day, oh wait, I'm pregnant and have baby brain.  Thank you, my little man, for those lapses in judgement and memory : )

First post back in the blogging world after a long absence and after seeing many of my friends and family utilizing blogs, I figured this was a bandwagon I'd join, again.  A lot has happened in my life since I last blogged, so much so that I felt I needed a fresh start, a new blog, almost like cracking the binding on a new journal.  So when I was thinking of a title for this blog the first thing that came to mind was "Jackin' It To Jesus", now I first heard that phrase on TLC's "Toddler's and Tiaras" in reference to the hair styles, but thought it was quite fitting for where I am in my life.  Because everyday I'm learning to literally jack it to Jesus, and in these next few lines I think you'll see why... 
1.  I am currently 20 weeks pregnant with my first child, a boy, who I am so enormously enamoured with already it's slightly nauseating!  I am obsessed with beef jerky, apple sauce, and sprinkle donuts right now to the point that people in my office will purposely bring me a sprinkle donut because they know I will eat at least 3 of them a day, no joke.
2.  Did I mention I was pregnant?  With my first child?  Yep, JITJ.
3.  I am someone who has been riding the line on faith and following Jesus versus taking my own way for the last 5 years and I'm sure if you sat down and looked at a timeline of my life you would be able to pinpoint which side of the line I was on!  It's something I continually work on and struggle with, and I'm sure to a degree I always will, but I do thank God that He continually humbles and cradles me in my times of crash and burn.
4.  My mother is my rock, quite literally.  Ever since college my mother and I have dubbed each other, she being my rock, and I being her pebble.  A bond and a relationship that no one will ever be able to touch or understand but she and I, and I relish it : )  She is soon to take on another name, "Misu", the name she has chosen for this precious one to call her!
5.  One of the lessons I have learned in the last couple of months is that family and your close friends are the ones who make life worth it.  The joy, peace, comfort, solace, understanding and most importantly love and support cannot be measured nor can it ever be repaid, but it is the most wonderful debt I have ever experienced!
So I hope to use this virtual space to document the comings and goings of one woman in this large world as I get ready to embark on a very large and anticipated chapter in my life!